Hope

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After taking steroids last night, I slept a total of 2.5 hours and this morning had a mini-breakdown. Oh, how I'd like to just stay home today and not head into Nashville to spend the next 10 days feeling miserable. 

As I was getting ready, however, Brian brought me up a gift from his West Cheatham School Family. He's got a big rubbermaid downstairs full of gifts ready for each chemo treatment - they've given me one for each chemo day. Attached to every gift has been a card with a specific quote or Scripture of encouragement, and today's envelope said Hope. So many times these quotes or Scriptures have come at exactly the right time. You can't tell me God's not helping guide what quote I get on what day. The quote inside was "When the world whispers "give up" hope whispers "try it one more time." Just what I needed. Although it did bring more tears. :)

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Comments

Anonymous said…
God knows what we need, when we need it. I'm thankful for so many who have responded to your need in love. We share hope with you. Love, mom
7:59 AM
Joy said…
Praying for you - it has to be so tough to face "that room" again after feeling so good for weeks. Just know you are halfway through and you can do it. Keep thinking of the woman leaving the treatment room for her last one, that will be you very soon! God is giving you the strength to blast this nasty cancer. Hope you are able to get some rest soon. Thinking of you constantly.

PS-Sounds like Brian works with some pretty awesome people.....
8:20 AM
everythingismeowsome said…
what wonderful friends. Everything seems so much more daunting without sleep--I hope you get some soon!
8:25 AM
Christine @ 12,450miles said…
I wish I had the right words... instead: You can do this. You can!!! I'm thinking of you today... Hugs my friend.

(I'm a little teary with that note attached too.)
8:28 AM
Lindsey Carney said…
That gave me cold chills. Praying for you.
8:41 AM
MyEbella aka Kim said…
I'm always amazed with your stories (and others) when they show God helping! Amazing how it fit so perfectly for what you needed today!
9:44 AM
Anonymous said…
I'm SO glad He always knows just what we need when we need it. What an amazing group of people you have surrounding you, too.
I am hopeful for you today that you will not get as sick as your last round. You will be on my mind all day!!
10:30 AM
Janet said…
I had many sleepless nights during my treatments. I felt like a zombie some days. I hope you can rest today and tonight. I was never much of a napper...but had to learn it was OK and NEEDED to nap...especially when I couldn't sleep at night. BOY did I get a lot of books read that year. Wow.

What a GREAT idea for a little gift & quote/note for each day of TOTAL ICK. What a fabulous, loving, and supportive community you have...so important. They will help you get through this. Hugs!
1:39 PM
Shelly said…
Praying for you today....
2:06 PM
Mayme said…
I have been thinking about you all day. Hang in there. You can do this. You are so strong and determined! God is going before you every step of the way.
3:52 PM
Kelly said…
what an amazing circle of support you have!! I hope that you find some peace as you begin this next round...sometimes it's those little messages, the unexpected voice of hope that keeps us going...I am thinking of you.
Kelly
4:36 PM
Brenna said…
What a precious gift from your friends. And just at the right moment. I've had you in my prayers today and will continue. Big hugs!
5:58 PM
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