Monday, March 31, 2008

My Day

I think this is what being a stay at home mom means: letting your girl eat a messy (and not quite healthy) snack and not caring - just enjoying the giggles and hugs you get in return.

And letting her "help" with the laundry.

Look at that smile. She thought she was big stuff "helping" me.

Our Weekend

As I look back on the weekend, I can hardly remember most of it so apparently it was not that exciting! I did take Camden to see Horton Hairy Who (a.k.a. Horton Hears a Who) on Saturday afternoon during Rory's nap. We had lots of fun, and that is one seriously cute movie! I think I've mentioned here that Camden is having some issues dealing with a new baby sister so we've tried to give him some extra attention. Well, we had so much fun on our little "date" but as soon as it was time to come home, he got very sad and was just a brat (is it politically correct to call your child a brat?) the rest of the day. Not sure if he was sad it was over so quickly or what was going on.

I'm quite exhausted from our Sunday. I remember how difficult it used to be when Camden was small to get all of us out the door dressed and ready, and it's just as hard now that there are 2! Rory and I were in the nursery for Sunday School and church, and that job is not for wimps! Lots and lots of toddlers who may or may not be happy to be there! I stayed for a baby shower after church. Then back to church for the evening service (we lasted all of 20 minutes before I headed home with her). Rory did take a 3 hour nap yesterday afternoon, but we paid for it last night. She was very restless and woke up lots and ended up in our bed at midnight, which is quite a bit earlier than usual. Hopefully she'll nap well today.

It's supposed to rain every single day this week so I guess we won't be taking too many walks. Maybe the weather forecasters will be wrong.

Here are two pages I scrapped on Friday.

Friday, March 28, 2008


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The Girl With No Schedule

I seriously cannot figure this child out! She seems to have no rhyme or reason to her day (or night for that matter) schedule! I guess it doesn't matter too much, but I'm very much a schedule/routine girl so I'd love for us to figure it out! She is currently asleep (at 8:30 a.m.!). She did sleep all night again, but was up at 5:30. Good thing we have nothing planned for today except for a quick trip to the grocery store. One of these days, maybe I'll actually remember everything I need and get back to one grocery store run a week.

I am a horrible mom - I forgot to mention that Rory was 18 months old yesterday, plus it's been exactly a month since we met her. I still can't believe that it's been an entire month since we were in that taxi in Seoul pulling up to the apartment building to see her little face and pigtails, along with Mrs. Park, waiting for us. In many ways, it feels like she's been with us forever, but it also seems that it cannot possibly have been an entire month! I've always heard other adoptive parents say that they miss Korea, and I never really understood it. I mean, how can you miss a city and country that you've spent so little time in, but I have to say that I am having those same feelings. I feel a connection to the country my children are part of. I am sad that Camden has no memories whatsoever of Korea, and I'm sad that Rory is already losing those small bits and pieces of Korea. She is no longer singing the sweet little Korean songs (although we still play them for her often). She is not saying Korean words any longer. I've had to wash the two blankets and two towels that Mrs. Park sent home with her so they no longer smell like SaRang when we first met her. I have been watching some You Tube videos on Korean pronunciation (we've discovered we were saying SaRang completely wrong!), and I want to try to teach Camden and Rory both at least some basic words. They'll have to be basic because I'm struggling to learn them myself! Brian and I are both determined that we will take them back to Korea in a couple of years, which means we need to start saving some serious money, but I think that we really have to do it for them.

Last night we made a quick trip to Brian's parents house to feed the goats while they're out of town, and on the way home, Camden looked over at Rory (who was actually tolerating him well for once) and said, "Isn't Rory cute. We just love her. She's kinda soft."

He also had this little gem for us while in the car.

Camden: Daddy, let me tell you something. (if we could only have money for every time we've heard this phrase)
Daddy: Okay
Camden: Camel cigarettes are the worser ones. They make you more sicker.
Daddy: Who taught you that?
Camden: Well, there are three Mexican restrunts (yes, he says it this way). The one on the road past my school with the fish. The one with the bubble gum machine. And the one with the Camel cigarettes.

Now, seriously, how does he know these things? He's certainly not getting it from us. Surely, he's not getting it from church. And I sure hope that the private Christian school he attends isn't teaching this. So where does he get it?

To all my college/work friends who are reading the blog, I have to tell you that after being with you all last week and all of the "hello's" and "bye-bye's" we had yesterday with Rory, she is now saying "bah-bah" instead of "bye". And here I thought I'd be able to shield her from a southern accent!

Thursday, March 27, 2008

A Good Day

Today has been a good day for several reasons, not the least of which is the fact that Rory slept from 9:00 p.m. until 6:00 a.m. without waking up one single time! This is the longest stretch I've slept since we left for Korea February 25! She also took TWO naps yesterday, which was nice!

We ran a couple of errands in Nashville today and also stopped by the college to visit. We spent almost 2 hours there and thoroughly enjoyed every second! It was wonderful to see my friends. I have really missed being there. There were lots of ooh's and ahh's over Rory, of course.

Miss Rory has been in a very good mood today. Not sure if it's all the extra sleep or what, but she has been delightful. She even coerced me into letting her have a packet of Smarties. I'm not a big fan of toddlers and candy, but if you could see her sweet face dissolve into giggles and see all the kisses I'm getting, you'd cave too!

As I was looking for pictures to post today, I realized I never posted the pictures of Rory and her Gram and Gramps as well as great grandma.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Hump Day

So yesterday was pretty rough. I was so tired, and Rory was quite tired as well. The stinker just did not want to take a nap even after being up so much the night before. We made a quick trip to Walmart and then I laid down with her for an entire hour trying to get her to sleep, but she was having nothing to do with it. We walked with Mayme for about an hour, and Rory loved being outside. Finally about 3:15 she climbed up in my lap and crashed. I didn't want her to sleep too long at that point because I wanted her to go to bed early or at least on time, but there was no waking her! We did get more sleep last night and she didn't wake up until 6:15 this morning which is a great improvement!

Rory has started this little whining routine. She's not being serious - she's just copying Camden and looking for sympathy. She'll come up to us pointing and whining about a place on her arm, head, belly, etc. and wants us to kiss it and be sympathetic. What a little con artist!

Here are the pictures from Monday of Camden and Rory together.

It all started with the hug

Then she got up on his lap
Totally unposed - just checking each other out
Right before he unceremoniously dumped her out of the chair backwards

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

A few highlights from yesterday.

1. Camden spent a good 45 minutes scribbling "maps and messages since I have the community idol" (his version of Survivor).
2. Camden and Rory played "barbershop" without real scissors, thank goodness.
3. She then proceeded to try to climb up in his lap (pictures tomorrow) and it was so sweet until he dumped her off completely on purpose.
4. We ordered pizza last night (thank you, Pizza Done Right for $6.99 carryout on Mondays) and I was so desperate to get out of the house that we all rode along to pick it up. Is it sad that was almost the highlight of my day?

Last night was pretty rough. I'm pretty sure my hours of sleep topped off at 3-4, and Rory probably got 4-5. How is it possible for an 18-month old to survive with so little sleep? And shes actually pretty happy this morning (has been since 4:30 a.m.). Well, happy as long as she's on my lap; really, really cranky if I put her down. It's a good thing I'm becoming a good one-hand typist.

The big plans for today is a trip to the grocery store and possibly a walk. I'm not sure it got out of the 30's yesterday and was freezing, but I think it's supposed to be warmer.

I did scrap TWO pages within a 24-hour period! The first is using the first picture of Camden and Rory together, and the second is me and Camden one morning after we arrived home from Korea (sans make-up and real clothing for me - yikes!).

Monday, March 24, 2008

Easter pictures

Not only was yesterday Easter, but it also marks 4 years since Camden came home from Korea and we became a family. Unfortunately, Easter and the Easter egg hunt took precedence, and he got a little confused as to why we were celebrating. And as for the cake I bought, he said he'd rather choose something from his Easter egg basket because that would be "more specialer and more funner." I had planned to have a video from when we first met Camden as well as footage from yesterday, but Brian was much too busy getting ready to return to school after spring break to work on a video. A few pictures will have to do.

By the way, any of my photographer/digiscrapping friends know why my pictures look so bland? In Lightroom they look great, but when I upload them to the blog, they lose alot of color and sharpness.

Camden and his cake (yes, his head is cut off
but it's the only one I got where he's smiling)

What a handsome boy!

Family picture

Pray for me today. I've got Rory and Camden both at home today and they're already bored and not getting along, and it's only 8:47!

Since there's no video of baby Camden, I scrapped a picture from his early days at home.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Good Friday

We had our annual Good Friday service last night. Everyone commented on how great it was, but I'll be honest and say I couldn't really pay attention. It's hard when you've got a wiggly toddler on your lap who wants nothing more than to sing along, clap, and in general make lots of noise!

Last night was my first chance to dress her up, and it was as much fun as I imagined. However, I did learn there is a delicate balance to the timing. Getting ready too early risks messed up hair and wrinkled clothes. Waiting until the last minute risks cranky kids as you try to rush them out the door.

We took Rory and Camden to the park yesterday afternoon, and they had a blast. It confirmed what we've been thinking. Rory is going to beat Camden up one of these days. She is totally fearless while he is a bit of a baby. You should have seen her heading down the big slides with no fear whatsoever. She was so fearless that she was scaring me a bit! We're going to have to keep our eye on her for sure. Camden has always been one of those kids you didn't worry about - there was no chance he'd run out in the road to play, attempt something too big for him at the playground, etc. Rory we need to watch!

We have not had good nights of sleep since she's been home in general, but the last two have been especially bad. I am really wondering if it has to do with our activities before bedtime. Thursday night we had company and she was very wound up. Last night, we had church and she was surrounded by lots and lots of new people (no one touched or held her), but still it was alot of new things for her to see and experience. She is waking up many times throughout the night and seems very scared - it's been different the last two nights than it's been previously and these are the only two evenings where we've been out and about or have had company near bedtime. I think I need to keep that in mind as we work on a schedule.

I'm going to venture to the grocery store with both kids this afternoon. Brian is swamped with work, and we need a few things (specifically milk!) so I'm going to make the attempt. I seriously have no idea how people do it with more than 2 kids. At least this way, Brian and I are not outnumbered yet.

Here are the only two pictures from last night. Brian was the photographer and not so careful of "background issues" as I would have been. Note the watering can, grill, and water gun to the side of the picture. (Oh, and I've realized I've officially turned into one of those people - you know, the ones who dress their little girls up like dolls and ignore how their boys look. Camden totally needs a haircut and his outfit is a little wrinkled and from last year.)

Friday, March 21, 2008

SP - Last Day

We're keeping it low-key today. We might make a trip to the park later since it's nice out, and we do have a Good Friday service tonight, but other than that we're staying home.

Dinner went well last night. Rory had a good time with the grandparents and got really wound up. She did not go to bed until WELL past her bedtime and then woke up several times during the night so we're all tired this morning.

Here's a page I scrapped using pictures from our kite-flying day on Tuesday.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

SP Day 4

Not much to say today since we've spent most of it cleaning and doing laundry. It's so exciting. (can you hear the sarcasm in my voice?) I know, didn't I say we spent several hours doing that on Monday too? Somehow, the house just doesn't stay clean with two kiddos running around.

Brian's parents, grandparents, and aunt are coming over for dinner tonight. It will be nice to have company. His grandparents live far away in Virginia so we do not get to spend much time with them. I'm taking Rory for her first haircut in a few minutes. The mullet is getting to me. I have no idea if this is her first official haircut, but it's her first with us anyway.

Brian finished up our homecoming video. I think there are still a couple of Korea videos still in the making, but he's way too busy for videos these days!

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Spring Break Day 3

Today was a very wet spring day! Water and rain are everywhere. I think that playing outside is out of the question for several days since I'm not sure we have any sunny days in our forecast for quite a while.

We dropped Camden off at Gram and Gramp's house this morning at 9:30, and we headed to Nashville for doctor's appointments. I had my regular 6 month appointment with the breast specialist (all clear) and Rory had to get blood drawn at Vanderbilt Children's Hospital (just regular tests). She did really well right up until the point that the phlebotomist actually touched her! She screamed and screamed, but the lady did such a good job and found a vein the first time, and was very quick. Rory calmed down quickly and has been happy the rest of the day, which surprised me a bit!

I forgot this scary Camden story. Monday afternoon we were playing outside, and Camden found a worm. He thought it was the best thing to have a "worm friend" (this is my boy who back in the good old days never wanted to touch bugs). I looked up just in time to see him put the worm in his mouth! I screamed in horror and he dropped it. I'm honestly not really sure what he was thinking.

And speaking of Camden, the accident count is up to FIVE within less than 3 days. I am not a happy camper. My mom thinks we need to spend some extra one-on-one time with him. I'm sure that's good advice and we're going to try. It is very frustrating, though. I would expect this if he were three, but he's almost five!

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Spring Break Day 2

This is how out of it I have been. I realized yesterday that my watch was still set on Korean time. And I've been wearing my watch. Every day. And thinking that I was using it.

Today we went to a new shopping center that recently opened. I finally got Camden an Easter outfit (it coordinates with Rory's) and we just browsed. Camden was finally able to fly his new kite - he's been begging to do it every day!

Camden is having some adjustment issues. He is just over the top loud and obnoxious competing for attention. We've tried talking to him, telling him that we love him just like we love Rory. He's having potty accidents (two days in a row now), doing lots of babyish things, disobeying, etc. I sure hope this doesn't last long!!

Rory had a pretty good day. I made chocolate chip cookies and she had her first one last night. They were a big hit! She's clearly feeling more comfortable with us. When I have to tell her "no" about something, instead of sobbing into my shoulder, she either ignores me or shakes her head "no" to me and takes off running away from me. She's going to be a stinker!

I'm just getting around to posting pictures from our arrival to Nashville! Thanks again to Angie for taking pictures for us. It's so nice to have them, and it was so nice to not have to worry about it.
A very tired girl!
Meeting Camden for the first time.
Meeting friends!
The center of attention
Hugs from my mom
I can't remember what she was upset about.

Our first family picture
More time with Camden

First picture with Gram and Gramps
Getting ready for the ride home - first time in a carseat!
Holding Camden's hand - not too sure about the carseat.

Monday, March 17, 2008

Spring Break Day 1

It's been an exciting spring break so far. We've done laundry, cleaned bathrooms, vacuumed, dusted and fixed a broken toilet. Doesn't get much better than that! Maybe tomorrow will be a bit more exciting!

Camden would tell you that his day has been exciting. He pinched his thumb in the closet door (and it looks quite painful) and he thinks that arm is just completely incapacitated. I've tried to hide my smiles from him, but his reaction throughout the day has been pretty funny.

Rory reached out for Brian today and kissed him for the first time today. She has kissed him before, but not without alot of coaching and examples by Camden. Today she did it all on her own. It made him feel pretty good!

We went to church yesterday for the first time and stayed in the nursery for Sunday School and church. Rory was pretty quiet and solemn, but did well. It bothers me that she immediately left me and wanted to go straight to Liz as well as one other girl at church. That shouldn't be happening! I feel like I am being so paranoid (okay, you can call me uptight if you want) about the attachment thing, but I just want to get it right and to protect her as best as I can. She's had too many changes in her little life already. And I do feel that she's doing well. Everytime she pulls me in for a kiss or a hug or just giggles in my face, my heart melts a little bit.

I actually scrapped this page all in one day - something that doesn't seem to be happening for me lately! She was playing with her daddy here.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Oh, Dude

I'm convinced Rory's first new English words will be "Oh, dude" since Camden says it at least 3 dozen times a day. Said in a southern accent, of course.

Rory slept from 8:30 p.m. until 6:30 a.m. and also took a 2 hour nap today, so she was a much happier little girl today. No biting going on! Camden was a bit of a stinker today, but I'm sure it's all just normal as he adjusts to a new sister.

We braved the mall and Wal-Mart on a Saturday, and it was crazy! Of course, we forgot the stroller, which did not make things easier! So many things to remember and get back in the habit of doing! Rory was great even after we arrived home, which made me feel much better since she had so much trouble the last two days. And, in Chick-fil-A, she reached over, hooked her arm around my neck and pulled me in for a kiss. I didn't even mind that her mouth was covered in food.

Here are a few pictures from our playdate yesterday. Caden is the sweetest little guy. He has the best dimple and smile! He and Rory were in the same foster home for several months. It's just a crazy coincidence that we live close to each other and his mom reads our blog and happened to see the pictures of Mrs. Park.

Terrah waited for Avery (on the left) while we waited for Rory. She was one of the families stuck in the paperwork nightmare with us.

I love these pictures! It only took me FIVE whole days to finish a scrapbook page.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Just tired

We have had a busy couple of days! Thursday I decided to try to run a few errands in Nashville. It was our first extended trip out and about, and it went well. However, I paid for it when we got home because Rory was just C.R.A.N.K.Y. and very clingy. I'm not sure if it was just too much for her or what. Brian's mom and aunt came to visit, and she was very pleasant with them, and we went on a walk with Mayme, but with those two exceptions, it was a difficult afternoon and evening.

It took 2 hours to get her to sleep last night, and then she was up multiple times between 2:00-5:30 this morning and up for good at 6:30 a.m. That is just not enough sleep! And this was with only a 30 minute nap yesterday too.

We met up with Terra and Avery as well as Gina and Caden. Caden was in the same foster home with Rory as we've discovered after sharing pictures. I will post pictures tomorrow. I am glad that we went to see them, but it may have been too much. Getting out the door this morning was not a fun event! I was determined that she would take a nap this afternoon so after we were home and had eaten lunch,
I laid down with her trying to get her to fall asleep, and 45 minutes later she finally did. She is really fighting sleep, and I'm sure much of her crankiness is due to being so tired. I'm not really sure how to fix that because I'm doing everything I can to help her sleep more.

I think I'm seeing a trend. When the weekend rolls around is when I tend to feel more tired and discouraged. The weekends used to mean a bit of relaxation and less work, but with a new 17-month old at home and now that I'm a stay at home mom, it kinda feels like there is no rest or relaxation to be found anywhere, and to be honest, I'm just worn out. It is difficult to bring home a new baby, and I'm finding it even more difficult to bring home a toddler. I remind myself constantly that it's only been 2 weeks, and I shouldn't expect too much.

Brian and Camden are both on spring break next week so I'm looking forward to having them both home. I feel very disconnected from Camden right now. Rory just takes up all my energy, both physical and emotional, and I feel like there's not much left for him right now. I'm just going to stop now since I'm feeling way too tired and weepy to write more!

Here's a page using a picture from one of the first days home. We spent alot of time like this - on the floor, me with a ponytail and no makeup; Rory with droopy eyes and her head on my shoulder.

And this is how I get a few things done around the house. Rory in the Chunei so that my hands are free. I think I'm actually just checking email here, but I put her on my back and pick up toys, fold laundry, empty the dishwasher, etc.