In the past 48 hours I've received 9 emails asking how I'm doing. I've been debating writing this post for more than 48 hours, and I may regret it later, but I'm tired of pretending that I'm fine so I'll just answer you all here. While I don't feel well physically, emotionally I feel completely battered. I knew this was going to be hard, but I clearly underestimated how hard it would be to face the reality that chemo is now my way of life. That I'm never going to get to quit. That there is no hope of a cure. That I am probably not going to see my children grow up or grow old with my husband. That physically, this is as good as it gets. I know I should look at chemo as a gift. It's supposed to kill cancer. But chemo hasn't proven to kill my cancer; it just makes me sick. I'm tired of being an "inspiration." Tired of choosing joy, choosing gratitude. Tired of not knowing where we'll live or work. Tired of waiting on God...
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My husband and I are currently in the waiting process, adopting from Korea. I came across the link to your blog from one of the web forums. I just love your scrap pages...very creative! I'm new to scrapbooking and want to ask you if these are paper pages that you've taken pictures of or are you digiscrapping? Any advice for a new scrapper would be great to hear! Thank you!! Sarah
Chelle
So beautiful!! You will treasure these always and forever!!