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Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Some News

I've been waiting to give an update from my appointment with my oncologist yesterday until I had a few more answers, and while I'm still waiting for the big picture, I do have an update.

My CA125 is up slightly; Dr. C is concerned that my recent bouts with the stomach bug are cancer related and not stomach bugs at all - which completely took me by surprised. Also concerned with something she felt during my exam. I have a scan and x-ray tomorrow afternoon. As I write it out here, I realize that it's very possible I have nothing to worry about.

As we ran errands, ate lunch, picked up the kids, and continued with our day, I remembered what a strange, strange feeling it is to receive possibly devastating news and feel so numb. You continue smiling and chatting with cashiers, interacting with the kids, fix supper . . . while the voice in your head is screaming "how is this happening" over and over.

And then there's the still small voice that reminds you Who knows the complete picture even when you don't.

So my scan is tomorrow afternoon, and I should know results by the weekend. Until then, I'm going to continue to rely on prayers of friends and focus all of my energy on not freaking out. :)


25 comments:

Owlhaven said...

Praying for you and your family, friend.

Mary

Jolie said...

Keeping you in my prayers, Melissa!!

One of Nettie's Girls said...

Praying for you. Yesterday my devotion from Streams in the Desert reminded me of this comforting fact:

"God is in every tomorrow,
Therefore I live for today,
Certain of finding at sunrise,
Guidance and strength for the way;
Power for each moment of weakness,
Hope for each moment of pain,
Comfort for every sorrow,
Sunshine and joy after rain."

KirstyB said...

Love and hugs and prayers coming your way, Melissa!

VinGirl said...

I'm glad they are getting the tests done quickly. Continuing to think of you.

Julia said...

We have never met, but I have read your blog ever since you were featured on Lil Blue Boo a few years back. There is something so compelling about your honesty and your adorable family. I have literally been stalking your blog since yesterday worrying that no news was bad news. I will pray that the scan comes back clear and that you just have terrible, terrible luck with the stomach bug. It is not often that you get to say that repeated bouts of the stomach love would be a relief!

K. Angel said...

Prayers coming from NC! Expecting nothing but great results. Thinking of you in the coming days.

Amy said...

Oh Melissa. I am praying. After this week, I completely get your statement about feeling numb with potentially devastating news but having to continue "the normal." I am so sorry you are having to deal with waiting and wondering. Praying for peace for you and Brian.

Lori! said...

You definitely have my prayers for peace my friend.
Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almight. Ps 91:1

Lisa S. said...

Prayers form your scan tomorrow and for peace and calm until you have some real answers. You are an amazing woman and love your raw honesty of sharing your feelings. Blessings to you Melissa

Lisa S. said...

Prayers form your scan tomorrow and for peace and calm until you have some real answers. You are an amazing woman and love your raw honesty of sharing your feelings. Blessings to you Melissa

Rach@In His Hands said...

Oh friend, this made my heart sink. Big, bold prayers for you. May Jesus cover you with His peace and comfort.

Rebecca W said...

Praying fervently 3 words...pray it gone. That's it - just gone. Well, praying for peace and all that, too, but just praying those invasive cells forever gone from your precious body.

Michelle Huddleston said...

My prayers and most sincere thoughts are with you. Hogs those kids and think happy thoughts!

Karen said...

SO MANY prayers for you!! I will think good thoughts and pray like crazy for a good outcome. <3

Even Miracles said...

Thinking of you and praying. Offering it up to Him and sending you HOPE, love, faith and all things good .
Ally

Adriana Wilson said...

I've been following your blog for years. I got to "know" you through the Adoption Talk forum. You have given me so much strength and hope during my own journey with cancer. I just want to say: Keep calm and stay strong and positive.
I will be praying for you.

Monica said...

I will be praying for you as you wait for answers.

Lili said...

Thinking of you, Melissa! Hugs!!

theredpumpkin said...

Praying for calmness while you wait for the results and for good results.

Mimi said...

Melissa,

Thinking of you and praying for your strength today.

You are the King's daughter!

xox
Mimi

Amanda said...

Praying for you today and that your scan goes well.

Isaiah 26:3
You keep him in perfect peace
whose mind is stayed on you,
because he trusts in you.
Trust in the Lord forever,
for the Lord God is an everlasting rock

John 14:27
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid

Praying you can rest in His peace today!!

tinetinesmom said...

Praying for complete healing and peace for you and your family.

Julie said...

Praying. . .

Randi Oh said...

Praying for good news!