Round 6

-
Today I see Dr. W and start round 6 of my current chemo regimen. Brian and I both have found ourselves with an amped up anxiety level as this day has approached. I'll know more after I see Dr. W today, but I'm assuming I'll be having a CT scan after this round to see if this particular chemo has had any effect on my cancer. 

Not that the past 6 months have necessarily been easy, but they've been manageable with mostly good news from my monthly bloodwork. It's been relatively easy to settle into a routine and to push to the far regions of my mind the reality of cancer, scans, the future. Facing a scan and the possibility of new chemo has resulted in many sleepless nights recently.

I'm hoping to avoid a scan the week of Christmas. I know some people would just want to know the results, but in keeping with my frame of mind since being diagnosed with cancer, I just want to procrastinate and know as little as possible. I would really like to postpone the scan until after Christmas and all the festivities, but we'll see what Dr. W says.

This verse caught my eye yesterday morning, and I've been repeating it ever since. "I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13


Comments

Mayme said…
I am thinking of and praying for you guys today.
6:37 AM
Vicki Bridges said…
Will be praying for comfort and strength, great scripture too
6:39 AM
Amy said…
Praying for peace for you and Brian today.
7:48 AM
VinGirl said…
I hope your appointment goes well, I'll be thinking of you.
10:03 AM
Owlhaven said…
Praying good stuff for you and your family

Love,
Mary
11:13 AM
Renee T. said…
Lots of good thoughts being sent your way today :)
1:25 PM
Vicky said…
I'm just going to pray that along with you... such a great verse. I like to live in a tad bit of denial too- so I hope you will get to just have a great Christmas and leave the scan till after the New Year.
1:52 PM
everythingismeowsome said…
My prayer is that if you do get a scan before Christmas, it will reveal reasons for celebration! (((hug)))
1:53 PM
One of Nettie's Girls said…
Praying for peace and good news and doctors that allow delays when possible!
4:45 PM
Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

The Scoop

-
Our meeting with Dr. W today was fine. Not encouraging, but fine. I don't know why I expected better news, but I think it's hard not to hope that the bad news you hear is somehow wrong; that they've somehow made a mistake. Basically, the cancer is still the same as prior to chemo. Possibly a little larger, but he said it was hard to tell. He was glad that it had not returned to my bowel or colon (because that was a large part of my initial surgery), and my chest and lungs are still clear (apparently, this is the next place the cancer would go). It does not change my stage of cancer (still 3c), and remission is still a possibility, but he said that it would be very tough to get there.  There are several more drugs that we can try, which is good, but unfortunately they each have a success rate of only 25%. It's a little too early to be considering clinical trials because hospitals who hold the trials like for the patients to have tried the more main-stream drugs firs
Read more

Late Night Ramblings

-
Image
1. Thanks to Andrea for driving me to chemo today. I'm always a little anxious on the way in and the very few times I've had to drive myself, it's been a little lonely coming home. But not today. 2. A fellow chemo patient today thought I was in my 20's. Score.  ("score" would be a term I'm borrowing from Becky ) 3. I did not wear a scarf today to chemo, and all the nurses and doctors did a double take since they didn't recognize me. So wierd. I recognize me with hair, bald, and with a little puppy fluff. 4. Dr. W. is adding Avastin , a new drug which will help prevent cancer cells from growing, to my current Gemzar routine. Good news is that it won't make me feel any worse. Bad news is that in a small percentage of patients it causes severe side effects involving blood clots, kidney failure, ulcers, and holes in your bowel. Good times. 5. I've been instructed to head directly to my primary care doctor for blood pressure medic
Read more

Scenes from the Soccer Field

-
Image
So I may not have apologized yesterday about the number of pictures, but I am definitely going to today. Because  coughcough thirty coughcough just might be excessive. And probably my family will be the only ones who look at all of them. But I don't care. :) By the way, we completely lost and did not even score a goal yet again. Rory tried really, really hard. This team was head and shoulders bigger than we are, way more coordinated than 4 year olds should be and their coach kept their A team in the entire game. Even after scoring some 15 goals. Oh, well. Rory still enjoyed herself. Which way is the goal again? Notice her position in this picture. Notice how she passed the girl next to her? No, I am not competitive at all. Not sure where the other team is. Oh, wait. There they are. See how much bigger they are? You'll notice she almost always runs with her mouth open. Either that or her tongue hang
Read more