Surgery Tomorrow

First of all, let me just say that I was mortified to discover I've been saying gynelogical instead of gynecological. Seriously hate misspelling things. Brian kept telling me my friends would forgive me. :)

So we spent 3 hours at the hospital today. I cannot tell you how I felt the heavy weight on my heart lifting throughout the day, and I know it was because of your prayers. I am so grateful that God provided for me in that way. Brian and I were able to laugh many times today. Met our doctor and really really liked him. His news wasn't necessarily reassuring, but he is going to be a great doctor to have in my corner. My tumor is pretty enormous, which is never good. I'm having surgery first thing tomorrow morning and will have a 4-5 day hospital stay. They will know before the surgery is out if the tumor is cancerous. He said there is a chance that it is not, but there is a strong possibility that all my stomach problems in the last 5 months are a result of ovarian cancer. Surprisingly enough, I'm not that scared. I'm sure the fear will return, but for now I am just so grateful to have a good doctor and so grateful to be moving forward tomorrow.

I'm giving Brian all access to the blog so he can update you, and I've told him he has to do it tomorrow after surgery; fairly certain I will not be coherent enough to do it myself. The most exciting medical thing to happen to me to this point is having my wisdom teeth removed so I have no point of reference as to how I'll feel after major surgery. I told Brian that all my life I've been so healthy and my medical history is ridiculously boring (per the pre-op nurse I saw tonight), but tomorrow I'm picturing an ER/Grey's Anatomy scenario where all the doctors want to see the enormous ball removed from my abdomen.

My agenda for the evening includes 10 ounces of magnesium citrate and a tap water enema. Anyone want to join me?