It's Official
My cancer is not any more serious today than it was yesterday. I do not feel any worse today than I did yesterday (better, in fact). I am not more sick today than yesterday. But today I officially look like a cancer patient. Which I guess I am, but so far it's been fairly easy to conceal my scars and diagnosis from the outside world. I have shed alot of tears over the loss of my hair over the past 6 weeks, but today when I finally went to see my stylist and had her shave it off, I didn't cry. My sister says that the dread of being bald is actually worse than the reality, and although it's only been a couple of hours, I think she might be right. I'm not gonna say that this is fun. In fact, it's kinda ugly to be a 35 year old woman with stubble on your head (here's hoping that will go away), and it's actually really, really cold. But as I keep telling the kiddos (and reminding myself in the process), it means that the chemo is working its way through my body and that same chemo that made my hair go away is also going to make the cancer go away. I'm not gonna promise that I won't shed more tears over my hair over the next year or so, but for today I am mostly okay.
And because Brian never makes the blog, but helped with the picture. :)
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You have been on my mind all day.
Praying that God brings you peace and comfort in the days that feel too overwhelming and hard and scary. Hugs to you!
It is a hard day and certainly okay to shed a few tears.
Much love to you,
B
I bet it *is* cold!
I am sorry about your hair though. I'd be crying too... but you look so healthy that I bet some people just think you are expressing yourself.
That said, I think you and Brian should have a photo shoot while you are both rocking the same look. I think the photos would be special and sentimental on so many reasons.
PS - I LOVE that scarf!
Been thinking about you all day.
I am so sorry for the loss of your hair, of your time and health and all the other crap that has gone with this dang stuff. But I appreciate you and the way you are lifting us all with your strength.
you look beautiful. and that scarf is gorgeous, too. :)
as they say in korea (though i don't know exactly why...), FIGHTING!
Christine
Hugs kelly
You are so very beautiful.
As to the hair loss. I couldn't agree more...Melissa is beautiful! I convinced her to wear one of my hunting stocking caps around the house last night, and I REALLY liked the look! Beautiful!