Because Life is Never Boring

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I started having some pain in my lower left abdomen Saturday night (and, no, it's not a gall bladder flare up - wrong side and location). Bad enough that I stayed on prescription pain meds Sunday, Monday and Tuesday. Honestly, I didn't think that much about it until I remembered two different stories of cancer patients finding new tumors because it started to hurt and they could actually feel them. And when I called the doctor and he automatically ordered a CT scan, I started to be a little freaked out. Over the last 48 hours or so I've been convinced I feel a ginormous lump about a hundred times, and about a hundred times I've been convinced it's nothing. The pain issue is slightly complicated by the fact that my scar tissue decided to go out with a big hurray and abscessed again over the weekend, and both the scar tissue and new pain area are in the same general location.

The good news is that I didn't have any pain at all yesterday, but I'm headed to the hospital this afternoon for a CT scan, and I would definitely appreciate prayers for clean scans and for peace while we wait. I told Brian yesterday that this whole "healthy" phase I'm going through right now feels like such a fragile house of cards that could topple at any moment. I really don't want that moment to be right now.


Comments

Amy said…
Praying for you this morning, Melissa. Hope everything goes well this afternoon!
7:03 AM
Monica said…
Praying for peace for both you and Brian! Hope you stay pain free and the inflammation clears soon!
7:30 AM
Cheryl said…
Praying for you Melissa (and your family).
8:02 AM
Tia said…
Praying for you today!
8:11 AM
Kelly said…
been thinking about you so much...sending you peaceful thoughts to get you through the waiting...
8:12 AM
Danyelle said…
Prayers going up for you right now.
8:26 AM
Anonymous said…
Hello. I came about your profile by Google searches, I too have a CT scan comming up on Monday for lower pelvic pain. They found a mass on my left ovary during sonogram :( hope all goes well with you. - Diana
9:00 AM
Vicky said…
Whew, okay, praying for you... I know fragile and its hard to rest very comfortably there.
9:48 AM
Renee T. said…
Sending lots of good thoughts your way :)
10:28 AM
Krista said…
In my thoughts and prayers!! Hugs Melissa!
10:31 AM
Mayme said…
I'm praying for you guys. Love you all!
2:30 PM
Brenda Shearon said…
will be praying for you, I saw that you were fasting so I thought you were having your scar tissue surgery. Praying for a clear scan and that the pain will stay away!
3:36 PM
Linda Balthrop said…
Praying for you.
6:43 PM
Anonymous said…
Praying continuously for you Melissa. I hope you still feel pain free. XoXo

Claire Borrero
7:17 PM
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