Kill Cancer Day, Take 4: Round 2

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I'm sitting in our private infusion room at Vanderbilt, shoes off, feet propped up, warm blanket covering me, red rimmed eyes as I experience a whole new appreciation for the opportunity to spend today receiving a life-giving poison.

I fell asleep last night with a specific situation on my mind and before I was even fully conscious this morning, the verse from Psalm 46 was echoing through my brain: "God is my refuge and strength; a very present help in trouble. Therefore, I will not fear though the earth gives way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea."

Over the course of the past few days, a friend went from a breast cancer diagnosis to the news that the cancer has spread extensively through her body with little hope for a cure.

I don't even know that I can call her a friend. We have certainly spoken on several occasions. In fact, the last time I remembering seeing her she met Camden and Rory for the first time and was a little bit star struck at seeing them in person.  We have the same circle of friends, church affiliation, college we attended. She has been a blog reader for many years, and her friends and family are some of the ones who have loved us well through my own cancer treatments. Her family is so, so heavy on my heart. The thought of what her husband and little ones are facing hits close to home. The thought of her sister rushing home to see her hits close to home.

And I have never been more grateful for this plastic tube delivering poison to my body. I sat in the waiting room with tears flowing down my cheeks knowing that we're all just a step away from catastrophe. Will you join me in praying for Bethany and David today?

Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. For I, the Lord your God, hold your right hand; it is I who say to you, "fear not, I am the one who helps you." Isaiah 41: 10, 13


Grateful for a friend willing to brave the cold temps and early morning to help us kill time before my appointment.
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And how about this bedhead? Girl must had been sleeping hard!
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Comments

Vicky said…
Ohhhhh, I'm sorry. I know how it hurts. Teary-eyed now, too. And yes, thankful for those life-lines we cling to- like drugs and infusion, and side effects. And his mercy and grace to get us through…

Sending love and prayers to you… so much love!
11:40 AM
Michelle said…
May the Lord our God bless all of you. I'm including you too Vicky!

I'm so, so sorry!
7:01 PM
Christine @ 12,450miles said…
I’m so sorry. Unfortunately, I know how this went and I’m so sad for her family. You and yours have been in my prayers a lot, now even more so.
2:03 PM
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