I've spent the last 48 hours in a state of fuzziness as a result of no sleep. Dumb steroids. It may or may not have been the perfect time to convert my 2014 blog posts into a book. There were so. many. words. So. many. pictures.
In those odd, foggy hours, the words and pictures all felt a little useless. The hard of the past couple of weeks overshadowed so much good. Here are just a few things that came to mind when I stopped the negative talk for half a second.
- The great snow storm of 2014 immediately following Christmas break, which meant almost a 4 week break. What a fun time of just complete relaxation (although I might have had a slightly different attitude at the time).
- The spring break trip to Atlanta
- The family trip to Illinois in May
- Hosting a youth group for a week in June
- Surviving Burgess Falls!
- Sending the kids to Gram and Gramp's house for a week in July
- A quick weekend with Brian's family at Lake Holsten
- Starting a new job
- Working at D6
- 4 days at Winshape, including a zip line adventure!
- A weekend in the smoky mountains sans kids
- A new camera
- Birthday trip to Oklahoma with Becky
- Thanksgiving with Brian's parents
- The surprise lunch and gifts from Brian's new school family
- Amazing support from our church family
This post is simply a reminder to myself to stop allowing my medical issues define my attitude. Sure, cancer is hard. And chemo is not fun. And the management of cancer tends to take control of my schedule more than I'd like. But cancer does not equal the sum of my life.
I've never had a word for the year, but our family does often chooses a verse for the year. This one kind of chose me, as they often have. As soon as I read Isaiah this morning, "fear" jumped right out at me, and I was knocked over with the realization that this one word has been creeping into the little crevices of my being. If I let it, fear can destroy everything because fear replaces faith. And I just cannot let that happen.
Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. For I, the Lord your God, hold your right hand; it is I who say to you, "fear not, I am the one who helps you." Isaiah 41: 10, 13
*After reading these verses, I actually saw this blog post. Pretty sure that was no coincidence.