Friday (August 16, 2019)

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I don't have a list of 5 this week, just one big thing. Several weeks ago a CT scan showed "not subtle" growth (Dr. C's words) which means it's time to begin chemo again. While I wasn't surprised by the scan results, it's still hard to take. This is maybe the only time I've moved into the chemo routine with cancer-related symptoms, pain, etc. and I thought it might help me embrace the chemo as a gift, as life-giving, etc. But I just can't. I've tried to be grateful and I just hate it instead. Tuesday was the first round of this newest drug and despite the prediction that this would be a much easier drug to manage than the last one, I've been quite sick for the last 3 days. Thankfully, I will only need to have infusion every 3 weeks instead of weekly. I know that things will settle down, and our whole family will become accustomed to the chemo routine again, but it's been a hard week. My parents have been so helpful with the kids and even brought my favorite comfort food (homemade chicken and dumplings) for supper. 

I'm happy for the weekend. Nothing better than Friday night at home with Brian and the kids; it's always been our favorite downtime. Depending on how I feel, we have a little morning trip to the farmers market planned for tomorrow and hope to attend a friend's soccer game in the evening. Happy Friday, friends.

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 Eyes on the road, please.

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Comments

Joan B said…
I hope the chemo's side effects get better and the drug does it job. I can't imagine how scary and frustrating this must be for you and your family. Glad you are ok admitting that this sucks.
11:04 AM
Jocelyn aka JoBear2 said…
Thinking and praying for you!

Jocelyn XX
10:59 PM
Ramsh said…
This is upsetting news, and I am sad to read it. I'm so sorry you and your family have to deal with this. Thinking of you and praying for you.
1:41 PM
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